Behind my smile is a story you'll never understand
Who am i?
My name is lori..but that is not important.
I am an honest person and have NOTHING to hide. I dont believe that anyone should have anything to hide but whatever.....so if you have a question ..ask.
Read my blog is you want if not thats fine. There is music and poems and some other stuff on here....so
sit back read or not ...listen or not it doesnt matter. Either way ..Enjoy.
Life sucks and then you die....thats my motto.
The girl who seemed unbreakable, broke. The girl who always laughed, cried.
The girl that never stopped trying, finally gave up. She dropped her fake smile as a tear rolled down her cheek,
and she whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore" .
I am an honest person and have NOTHING to hide. I dont believe that anyone should have anything to hide but whatever.....so if you have a question ..ask.
Read my blog is you want if not thats fine. There is music and poems and some other stuff on here....so
sit back read or not ...listen or not it doesnt matter. Either way ..Enjoy.
Life sucks and then you die....thats my motto.
The girl who seemed unbreakable, broke. The girl who always laughed, cried.
The girl that never stopped trying, finally gave up. She dropped her fake smile as a tear rolled down her cheek,
and she whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore" .
So i have recently discovered some things about myself that i thought i would share. I didnt discover them on purpose but completely by accident. OK so about me....i havent exactly had the best life growing up....my mom died a way long time ago...my dad a bad alcoholic died not that long ago....my brother disappeared ....then randomly reappears and disappeared again.....i have had a few past abusive relationships....not too long term but apparently long enough...when i finally did meet someone and was in a relationship with that wasnt an abusive relationship he left me. Part of it was my fault i get that believe me i dont push blame off of me...because i am partially responsible but so was he. You see i learned recently about myself that although i am not insecure due to so many people that were close to me leaving my life it has caused me to need to be reassured on occasion that you wont leave my life. should anyone have to be reassuring in that department no but let me tell you it really does go a long way when it comes to trusting someone and knowing you can depend on a person. Maybe that is the reason my last relationship didnt work...i never felt he would stay. I dont know. maybe thats why the last relationship didnt work.....i guess i will never know.
I realize i want to be needed, i want to be important to someone....important enough that they will stay around...good times and bad times....even when it gets really hard and really frustrating they will still be there for me and i will be there for them. i want someone who wants to be there with me through the good and the bad. I WANT TO COUNT FOR SOMETHING AND SOMEONE!!!
Is that too much to ask?
I realize i want to be needed, i want to be important to someone....important enough that they will stay around...good times and bad times....even when it gets really hard and really frustrating they will still be there for me and i will be there for them. i want someone who wants to be there with me through the good and the bad. I WANT TO COUNT FOR SOMETHING AND SOMEONE!!!
Is that too much to ask?
